APEX: before

I always like to write down what I'm expecting from God for a retreat because when I come back I love seeing how he exceeds my expectations.

In a natural sense, I'd really love to connect more with my own ministry and some of the younger girls in it so I can be a closer mentor to them. I want my youth group to become better friends so that we can be an example to the believers in speech, life, love, faith and purity together when they see us interact at church.

I pray that our youth become on fire because sometimes I just think something is lacking, and that's the fire. I'm believing that it's gonna happen this weekend and I'm so excited to be a part of it. I want the youth to bring it back with them.
Our youth group isn't going to grow in number if the numbers we already have aren't growing spiritually.

Personally, I'd like to be refreshed. I've felt like I've lost a bit of a sense of direction. It's a bit forth coming to be out in the open about these personal problems but I believe as the Body of Christ we're to be building up each other and praying for one another.

I've felt like I've been sinking slowly lately. It's partially because it's the end of my senior year, though. I'm able to place some of the blame on that..

A lot of it's on my own shoulders though, and I'm just looking forward to a new experience with my Saviour.

I love being in God's presence... it's familiar, but it's also something new every time. Like your favorite song, you always find something you've never listened to.. a breath you didn't know the vocals took, a chord you never would have thought of, a beat you didn't know existed and you've listened to the same song for years... it's already something you trust, you know, you love.. but it's always new, in a new environment, you're always changing.. but He remains the same- all powerful, all loving, the ever living God.. and He's all ours!

So excited for this weekend- I'll be sure to give you an update on how it goes!!